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Hen Speaks

If Walt Disney (“Silly Symphony,” one of several animated short films produced during 1929-1939, staring the debut of Donald Duck) and Ronald Reagan (1976 political monologue) can spin new perspectives on the 1918 Old English Folk Tale, so can I. But first, the back story leading to integration. Last Wednesday evening, I attended the introductory…
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Co-existing with Energy Zappers

How have you been zapped today? By stress, worry, anxiety, judgment, frustration, losses, or limitations? Although these outcomes seem to have a pattern, you are not a specific target; random change and humanness are part of life. It is how you choose to view these robbers of personal energy—with acceptance or resistance—that determines your quality…
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The Supreme Gift

Anticipation was high. We were looking forward to quality family time and a change in environment. The present moment, however, has a way of tempering expectations. Ever-present turbulence during the flight, regardless of the altitude, created a mock Tilt-a-Whirl effect. It afflicted our descent as well. As we dropped in elevation, a glimpse of the…
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Private Rituals

One of my favorite magazines brought to mind the importance of ritual in life: maintaining structure and order, preserving values and beliefs, celebrating milestones or honoring personal or local community. Several definitions give meaning to “ritual”: (1) “A ceremony or action performed in a customary way” (family members having pizza in front of the TV…
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Lift or Squash?

Somewhere around the ages of eight or nine—I have a grandson and granddaughter in this range—a child has capitalized on a growing Ego. The voice is almost magical, yet highly persuasive as it drives the child to distinguish in any way possible. To stand out from the crowd begins with checking out the competition and…
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Of Prosperity and Forgiveness

The etymology of “prosperity” began with the Latin, “prosperitas,” meaning to have hope, success, and good fortune. The word then morphed into Middle English and Old French, retaining the meaning referencing having more than enough of what is needed and wanted in life. Today, it also refers to an attitude toward life. www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/prosperity “I can’t pay…
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Yield to Forgiveness

Ego: It’s not fair! I told Patti, in confidence, about a newly-discovered breast lump from my recent mammogram. She told someone else in our women’s group, and now everyone knows. I haven’t even returned for a follow-up screening yet. It was my story to tell! Higher Self: That’s a tough one. Ego: It was an insatiable personal urge to tell…
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Getting to Forgiveness

Forgiveness is a component of every world religion. Ancients have practiced forgiveness on behalf of all energies for thousands of years. From experience, a daily personal forgiveness practice offers confidential spaces for the mind to explore new perspectives, a softened heart, and a lighter, freer feeling. Forgiveness, particularly within human relationships, is definitely the direction…
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Your Heart Song is Forever

To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart and to sing it to them when they have forgotten. ~Arne Garborg, 1851-1924, Norwegian writer; translated The Odyssey into New Norwegian   In witnessing over one hundred external and internal experiences with Source, I believe that Arne Garborg’s quote is exactly…
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Crone Wisdom

Loss comes with gifts, came the nudge. I’ve experienced this idea before. Even though an outcome is anticipated, the moment that it is confirmed by a call, an email, or a text message, there is a raw and emotional response. Perhaps that was it. “What is” surrounded me instead of what I had hoped for.…
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Barnacles, Belief, and Banter

*I can’t get rid of the chatter! *Maybe meditation isn’t for me; I tried it for five minutes, and nothing happened. *I keep falling asleep… *How do I fit it in? Let’s see, today I have fifteen minutes before taking Katie to swimming lessons. Tomorrow, if I get up at 5am, I can meditate before…
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You are So Much More

How much evidence is needed? You are so much more was the message that my softened and surrendered heart received from Source less than a week ago. What did this message mean and where was it leading? Previous to the night of the message, I had spent five hours with a nonagenarian relative in the…
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Rushing

Video: https://youtu.be/DCzeVaGXldw A family gathering: Rushing to get there. Rushing to be together. Rushing to take time. Destination: Calgary, Alberta, to celebrate the ninetieth birthday of Paul’s Mom. Over fifty family members and friends would honor the family matriarch and share stories. The busyness of the last three days was equaled, and eventually transformed, by the…
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Masks

Pièce de résistance. Why would intuition bring forward that term when contemplating yet another question regarding death? What do we resist? That which we resist is what we most need to explore. Yet, pièce de résistance, borrowed from the French, suggests three different meanings in life: “1) Creative masterwork or masterpiece, 2) Best achievement of…
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Trust the Unknown

My 148-year-old rocker was waiting for me. I sat down and began to focus on my breath, feeling its familiar rising and falling to a count of six. Relaxed and comfortable, I continued in this way until time seemed non-existent. I began to recall impermanence and how it touches everything in the universe except Source.…
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Who Knew?

All right, I would refocus my efforts in the resistance department. Physical signs that I needed more personal healing became clear. Apparently there were still more layers of healing to ponder. I could have balked at my higher Self about this, yet when I honestly assessed my efforts, there was inconsistency. A work-in-progress, I am…
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The Clear Choice

They seem to single us out. They trouble us. They persist. Moments of loneliness. Everyone knows them, yet interacts with them uniquely. How we handle these moments depends on our willingness to explore a deeper level of our awareness. Some of us may bundle these moments together and slide the whole caboodle into a drawer…
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Light and Love Trump Change and Fear

How many times in knowing relatives or friends who are suffering, either physically, mentally or emotionally, are we sad for them? Our sadness also has a component of fear. We are secretly grateful that we have been spared such situations…for today. We feel relieved. We have survived this wave, so we must be “living right”…
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In the Middle of the Night

Ego  It’s the middle of the night! What’s going on? Elizabeth (fictitious name) should see a doctor to be checked for whip lash. Her tubing experience could create future problems. This thought was replaced by another: Tomorrow is a writing day, and a topic eludes me! And: We forgot to put out the garbage and recycling bins.…
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Why Do I Insist?

Perspective reminds us of the familiar statement: Change your view, change your life. What are the ways we look at things? According to vocabulary.com, “…all definitions of perspective have something to do with looking. *Bird’s eye view, panoramic: view from an altitude or distance *Cutting edge, forefront, vanguard: view from greatest importance or advancement *Paradigm:…
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Now That’s Fear!

Mine! I recall my second oldest daughter’s voice defiantly escalating as she clutched closer her teddy with only one eye. Her older sister, by sixteen months, was not going to take Teddy for a stroller ride to the refrigerator cardboard box that had become a grocery store. At just barely two, daughter #2 already knew…
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No Shortcuts!

No shortcuts. No deals. No U-turns. Sooner or later, we will come face-to-face with the question: What brings true meaning to life? Not that this reflection is urgent, just that it is becoming a more prominent thought, as it should. When we are honest, we accept that each day is another step toward remerging our…
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Discerning Illusions

Ego  You’re going to leave the classroom for the world of self-employment? What makes you think you’ll survive? Higher Self  Remember, everyone is a learner; I’ll tweak my approach, develop new examples for business writing, and use different stories. Whether it’s in the classroom or boardroom, the foundation for effective writing is to know the…
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Who Am I?

Take the next minute to verbally list as many possible answers to the question: Who am I? Someone will write the answers so you can more easily focus. Begin! Mother, Wife, Daughter, Aunt, Sister, Sister-in-law, Friend, Neighbor. Forty-five seconds to go. Um…Teacher, Writer, Reader, Organizer, Cook, Housekeeper, Gardener, Yogi, Laundress, Chauffeur. Twenty more seconds to…
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Be With Your Heart

Wholeness is the result of our internal and external discoveries from “In the Thick of Things.” Yet, every once in a while, fear surfaces to distort our perspectives. With the intention of living with more freedom and less fear, we remember the Buddhist tools of discipline, meditation, and clarity that lead us in that direction.…
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Good Things Come in Threes

For over a year we have been discovering Source through external experiences—situations where we are “in the thick of things.” After fifty blog entries of this nature, we moved into discovering Source internally. In the analogy of our body, it’s as if we pursued Source through the perspective of the skin and moved within, finding…
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Allow, and Peace Comes

A Christmas Heartbeat I am quiet, for only then can I begin to know and accept myself. Deep inside, my higher Self waits, patiently and without judgment, observing how I approach my imperfections. Do I hide from them, believing that they are separate from me and will go away if I ignore them? OR… Do…
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When the Singing Stops

Holidays are a time for festivities, laughter, and happiness! Traditionally, people share goodwill, food, and set aside their differences, showing their best sides. For one month, they forget grudges, smile at their bosses, and open to the ideas of others. Even those who don’t usually sing find it in their hearts to hum fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la!…
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Forever Treasured

“Tis the season for gifts. Some have been memorable because of their match with expectations, like the year Santa presented me with a pale yellow, wool Garland sweater and skirt set—I felt like a princess when I wore it—the essence of luxury and softness. Then there have been gifts that completely missed the mark, like…
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Stuck, and I Didn’t Even Know It

A wheelchair? Forget it! I vehemently responded to Paul’s suggestion that a change of scenery (being out in nature and seeing people) might be just what I needed. Torn tendons and ligaments in my left ankle from a fall a number of years ago was the “bad news” that kept me on crutches or on the…
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Expiration Date

Thinking of people in terms of an expiration date, like cans perched on a shelf, used to make me laugh. By far much less flippant these days, I find the humor not so apparent. When I donned a sticker indicating a “use by” date of 2035 and a “sell by” date of 2041, I was…
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Never Give Up!

Why is my mind chaotic and confused? The old habit of self-referencing—bringing all discussions back to I, me, or mine—reared its ugly head. My spiritual journey has shown me that I am not the center of the universe, yet sometimes I regress as Ego performs and carries words right out of my mouth. “Think of all we’ve juggled—occupations,…
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Sacred Space

So, what remains of us after contemplating a number of questions? A degree of inner freedom. Our mind has fewer preconceived and competing ideas, so we know more about who we are NOT. Despite all of our efforts over the years to build an identity of how we want to be seen and known by…
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Bridging the Gap

Deeper? We’re expected to go deeper to answer Who am I? It was already difficult—making time, being still, focusing thoughts without interruption—to engage with this question the first time. If we’re skeptical, we may stop here; we may already feel that we’ve gone deeply enough. We’ve thought about our customary roles and surface adjectives.  …
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Brainwashing

Heavy, heavy, heavy burdens…thoughts about death and dying…advanced by Ego… Shhhh! Don’t talk about it, or it might happen. Deny! Deny! See it doesn’t apply to me, only to those unfortunate others who did not live “right,” committed grievances, or just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Not me, I’m…
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Walking the Talk

I’ve been headed in this direction for some time…to contemplate my own death. Cosmically nudged to research, write, and speak about death and dying, I believe that an advocate needs to “walk the talk.” And I’ve been doing a lot of talking and writing. Eventually I knew that I would come face-to-face with this experience.…
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No, Thank You!

My friend’s eyes grew three sizes bigger.   You’re going to do what? she asked in disbelief.   Paul and I are applying to become hospice volunteers, I answered.   Do you have any idea what you’re getting into? The work is draining and highly demanding, she continued. It’ll consume you.   Have you ever…
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One Cycle Fits All

It is a natural and normal function within the universe. It is natural and normal for all energies. It is natural and normal for humans, being. The full cycle of emergence, existence, and dissolution (commonly recognized as beginning, middle, and end) is part of our DNA. We cannot escape, completely deny, or make it go…
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Lose the Models

“When I am with people whose greatest priority is the truth and work to let go of all that blocks their understanding, I don’t hear them say, ‘God, I’ve got to get my energy back; I’ve got to be someone in the world.’ Instead, they say, ‘I don’t have to be anything or anyone to…
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By Divine Appointment

In our busyness, we encounter many challenges, some mandatory and others, elective. However, none is as revealing or as life-changing as the exploration of our personal sacredness: the exploration of our soul. Walking this path is neither mandatory nor elective; it is by divine appointment and offers the choice for new awareness, contemplation, and vision.…
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Fifty Layers Inward

Fifty blog entries since November! Opened to the awareness of Source, we are surprised, amazed, and perhaps even delighted to discover that an energy greater than we are is everywhere—confirmed by our senses—when we intend to be open to it. Our desire for awareness of Source, on a weekly, if not daily basis; commitment to…
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Seeking Resonance

Source is everywhere and in all things, all of the time. This is the strand of oneness that connects all energies. Softening and opening our hearts, we grow in awareness of this fact. We accept what is around us and begin to realize Source through experiences with our senses. These experiences are openings or portals…
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Necessity, Not Luxury

“Love and compassion are necessities not luxuries. Without them, humanity cannot survive.” ~Dalai Lama, The spiritual head of Tibetan Buddhism, 1391-1474 From the last blog entry: We want to reach out to others who are experiencing loss… This intention, wrapped in love and compassion, aligns with Source and seeks oneness with others…. but what do we say?  What words would be meaningful?  What is…
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Loss Just Is

Recently loss took center stage in my life and reminded me of the impermanence of everything. The thick of things came in three’s. A friend suffered a major stroke. My ninety-three-year-old next door neighbor died. My cousin was hospitalized with kidney and liver failure. Loss. Everyone experiences it in life. Other than Source, nothing stays…
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Juice Up Your Senses

Bold and courageous, Spring Equinox ushers in light, leaving behind dark contemplations and long rest. Her perfect timing stirs our senses and sensibilities. In concert, all energies hear the call. Wake-up. Feel. Become.   Scylla among the first to greet us, gems among the winter brush, six shy petals, velvet blue, unfold in the sun.…
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State of the Heart

“When you care enough to send the very best,” once a tagline for Hallmark Cards, demonstrated the gold standard of heartfelt greetings for all holidays and occasions. Keep the sentiments shared on Valentine’s Day throughout the year, yet also turn that mindfulness inward, in the form of self care, a daily meditation. As you rise…
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Something Basic, yet Sacred

Recently I received an email from a friend, thanking me for listening to her concerns. I appreciate her taking time to let me know how she felt and believe that her email was a moment from the thick of things—a wake-up call from Source. A larger issue is at hand—the moments of listening that randomly…
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No Hiding

I didn’t know about allowing wisdom or the true meaning of authenticity then. I had gained some life wisdom from sheer existence and through motherhood. In hindsight, that was my early purpose. Since I had always been the kind of person who had a plan and worked it, finding a purpose for the later years…
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Grinchiness Cited!

Transformation happens when we think that we’re in charge. With the intention of keeping Christmas in our hearts every day, let’s remember that beloved Christmas character whose heart, it was written, was “two sizes too small,” and apply a slightly different interpretation. Let’s imagine that underneath it all, the Grinch’s heart, like ours, was just…
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Change Things Up!

Welcome to 2016! In the past the gift of a new year meant thinking about resolutions, or writing ego-approved statements that would “fix” me. Let’s change things up. Yes, we’re human and, by definition, are imperfect. Yet Source has created each of us with a built-in spark of divinity. This is Source within us, our…
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Hold something Beautiful in your Heart

Deep inside your heart is a space unaffected by time, circumstance or thought. Not of this world, it is a special gift from your soul. This space remembers your worth, your innermost dreams, your true purpose when you forget— Honor this space. Hold something beautiful in your heart.   It may be music written for…
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Slather on the Self-Compassion

Last night was one of those evenings when anything could happen. The BE Group (Be all you can be), a gathering that has welcomed spiritual seekers and practitioners for over twelve years, was in progress. We were greeted by cool, fall-like temperatures; gracious smiles; and newly-created fairy gardens featuring yogi frogs in traditional poses.  …
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Introduction

Life happens. We’re in the thick of things—sometimes up to our ears in alligators. Are you there, Source? we wonder. Are you frustrated when life seems to foil your expectations and you want them your way? Do you feel alone in your suffering? Do you wonder if there is more to the universe than just…
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Source Talk

Say “yes” to the present moment shows up on bumper stickers, banners, and bracelets. Easily rolling off the tongue, this phrase, in practice, is challenging. Why? Reality is that we spend most of our time thinking about something that has happened in the past or wondering about something that will happen in the future, instead…
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Humor in the Balance

Single-minded focus is needed sometimes. Examples include (1) Initiating or finishing a project, (2) Reflecting on a topic to gain a new perspective, or (3) Changing the atmosphere to help solve a problem. However, continuous, single-pointed thinking requires balance or it becomes difficult and often unproductive. When Ego is fully in charge, it convinces us…
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Dialogues of Healing

Personal Loss Dialogue IA   Ego  (screaming and almost teary-eyed): How dumb! Higher Self  (calmly trying to recover from the outburst): I know they’re here some place…I’ll just mentally retrace my steps. Ego  KEYS! How could anyone lose keys? Higher Self  They’ll turn up. Right now it’s just an inconvenience. Ego  More than you know!…
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Feel Love Open, FLO

Newness abounds: snow melting into a gurgling stream; “maple sugaring,” sap running through tubes leading to white buckets; hibernating animals reawakening; endearing animal babies, unsteady or feeding; and warming solar rays, coaxing the final clutches of frost. All of these signal flow of energy, the flow of life. Something deep within wakes us to that…
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Courageous Conversations

“What counts is not the enormity of the task, but the size of the courage.” ~ Matthieu Ricard   Be ready for change. Take courage. Impermanence is constant, yet most of us spend our lives looking the other way; or thinking that, should adversity catch up with us, we’ll deal with it; or believing our…
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You’ve Got It Coming?

“You’ve Got It Coming,” the name of a local catering service, jumped out at me. These simple words (with a slight modification) perfectly described the conflict of an earlier blog entry, “No Room for the ‘Other.’”  The place was the local self-service laundry, Supermatt, and the action was conflict at its finest: “I’ve got it…
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No Room for the “Other”

Walking the boulevard at night, enjoying the moonlight, stars, and night sounds of insects, we felt safe. The Rescue and Fire Station was less than a mile from our rented home and, occasionally, sirens could be heard in the deep of night.   During the day, our diverse neighbors were at work while the boat…
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Trouble in Paradise Revisited

I’m overcome with murky thickness! Source, where are you? Before coming to Florida, I set up an intention, a plan, to experience each of February’s twenty-nine days to its fullest and to be grateful for each one. I would be in a tropical paradise with no outside demands: Warm weather; a spiritual center with passionately-delivered…
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Trouble in Paradise

I woke up this morning, and the bickering began. Ego  It’s Friday, blog-posting day! Higher Self  Yes, I’m thinking about a topic. Ego  If you had worked more on the blog entry yesterday, I wouldn’t be feeling so stressed. Higher Self  I recalled yesterday when I shopped the open-air market in 80° and prepared dinner…
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Enhancing a Coat of Many Colors

Ma’am, may I have your letter? I don’t have a letter. I’m with him. Then move toward Doors A and B. Be seated in the back half of the ballroom. You, Sir, hang on to your letter and wait in this line.   That was it. We were separated. It felt abrupt and somewhat stark…
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Naughty or Nice?

Temperatures may have dropped, yet great warmth radiates from heart feeling and thinking. Feel it! On New Year’s Day, I suggested that deep inside the heart were basic tools for increasing love, growing spirituality, and connecting meaningfully with other energies. Give yourself permission to explore the nice tool of self-acceptance. As I close my eyes,…
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Small Acts, Great Love

It all began on Friday at 6:30 a.m.—witnessing little things done with great love—and became more apparent as the weekend continued. Strong winds throughout the night had made sleep difficult, yet the early morning hours brought a smile to my face. There is nothing like the aroma of pancakes and bacon wafting into the bedroom.…
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The Tremor Twins

One of my earlier blogs mentioned my initial experience with neck tremors. They came and went without pattern, yet, up to that point, did not affect my sleep or daily activities. Besides, it is often useless to explain the onset of odd quirks in the body. They’re like Minnesota weather—wait for a little while, and…
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Pick it Up, Put it Down, Let It Be

November generally gives me a break from the fall harvesting, freezing, and dehydrating of fruits and veggies, and lets me slow down. Not this year! Everything was focused on November 6, my daughter’s due date for the birth of the couple’s first child. The mommas had a plan. They had selected a midwife, doula, lactation…
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Awakening to Source

Back in the day, I wonder if I could have entertained this quest—looking for ways that Source or spiritual energy show up in my daily life experiences and encounters with people. Could I have seen heaven on earth? I’m unsure. Even with diligent searching, my mind would have been consumed with thoughts, mostly concerning the…
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Conscious Decisions

A statement from Dr. Wayne Dyer recently spoke to me: “Heaven is a state of mind, not a location since Spirit is everywhere and in everything. You can begin making a conscious decision to look for the unfolding of Spirit in everything and everyone that you encounter.” ~“Natural Awakenings,” ‘Heaven Within,’ September 2015   Personal…
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